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My career path
something is very wrong when I am doing my career path instead of mugging for fluids tomorrow. dear someone up there, please bless me like how you used to. I assure you that this will be the last second exam I will be going through in my life. I swear I will never sign myself up for this shit ever ever again!
Why hasn’t anyone invented this yet?!
In my perfect world, answers appear automatically when I write questions on my notes.
task: turn on webradio
in case you are wondering why, i need music to prevent myself from falling asleep at my desk. so, turning the webradio on is my task number one of the day.
on normal days, the procedure goes like this:
- switch on my laptop
- open my google chrome
- click on my 987 bookmark
during exam period, procrastination approaches its peak, so the procedure this morning goes like this:
- switch on my laptop
- open my google chrome
- click on facebook tab
- read some update newsfeed
- try to figure out how do i actually use facebook (and it is still something too complex for me! hate technology! =[ )
- check out the freshly pressed tab on wordpress
- read some random article about a pilot’s life (general knowledge. cannot be someone who just study and not know about the world outside right?)
- log in to today to read some news (well, i have to know what’s happening outside)
- check my phone. reply to some whatsapp messages. gossip a little. (social life social life…..)
- sign into my msn, check if my fluids helpline is online. (haha. i cant go beyond half a page without helpline)
- try to recall why did i switch on my laptop. meanwhile, boil some water to make myself a nice cup of earl grey.
- check email. (groupon deals are for a day only. gotta make sure i dont miss any good deals!)
- finally click on the 987 bookmark on my browser
- look at the time and realise i had wasted the entire morning to turn on webradio. decided to blog about it.
well, the books are in front of me. with my coloured pens and highlighters neatly lay out. dont judge me! i am going to start after blogging! i swear!
everyday i’m struggling
Prof A wants me to put 70% of my time on project A. Prof B wants me to put 70% of my time on project B. I need at least 50% of my time for my modules. So I need 200% of the time I was given by someone up there. Both of them need tuition on percentage.
horizon
My first time seeing a horizon. Woke up at 540am to see the sunrise. It wasn’t as breathtaking as what I had expected, but well, its still something amazing. (it was already dark when we reached last night). After a nap, wash up and breakfast, I look out of my balcony again and see the same horizon without the initial excitement.
I see myself in the middle of the ocean, trying to swim towards the horizon, but it doesn’t seem to become nearer no matter how hard I swim. People told me that I will love the place behind the line. So I just swim as hard as I can, not knowing where am I going towards, not knowing what to expect at the horizon, not knowing if I’m on the right track. Every other second, I will stop and stare at the horizon, hoping that there will be something appearing from it to save me. Sometimes, when I’m feeling unmotivated, I will look back at this fishing village, wondering if I should just turn back. Slowly but surely, I’m losing the belief that ‘if I work hard enough, I will get the reward I deserve’
Maybe I’m just someone with short foresight. I prefer to see something when I look across the water. Not looking out at just a line, and imagining what I can expect to see when I’m there. At least I think I know myself better now! =)
Thank you horizon!
today ish my lucky day!
see the green graph? its going to make me smile in my sleep tonight! *grins*
feeling so much better knowing i’m not the only one
